About the Book
For sixteen-year-old Pea, eating has always been difficult. Some people might call her a picky eater, but she knows it's more than that and it's getting worse. And now there's a monster raging inside of her, one that controls more than just her eating disorder. The monster is growing, and causing anxiety, depression, and dangerous thoughts. When Pea meets Ben and they fall crazy-mad in love, she tries to keep the monster hidden. But the monster wants out, and as much as she tries, she can't pretend that the bad in her doesn't exist. Unable to control herself, a chain of events thrusts Pea into a situation she never imagined she'd find herself in. With the help of Ben, her family, and her best friend, Pea must find the inner strength to understand that her eating disorder doesn't have to control her.